想法

也许是我以前不够知足，所以才会渴望得到许多许多，常埋怨自己的命不如别人。不知从何时开始，开窍了，想通了。不再怨天尤人，不再奢求什么，只感谢上天让我拥有的这一切。有时候回想回去，不是上天不给予我机会，而是自己不好好地把握、珍惜机会。机会得来不易，要怪也只能怪自己不懂事，让机会白白溜走。我，有什么资格去责怪上天的不公平，又有什么资格去妒忌别人的成功呢？

坚持

人生，是难以预料的。这一天他生龙活虎的，但没人意料他第二天就逝世了；这一分他们好好的，下一分却分手了；这一秒友情还是美好快乐的，下一秒就变成伤心痛苦的。没有人知道接下来会发生什么，也没有人知道未来的路有多弯曲。但只要过了那充满荆棘的弯路，也许人生从此就会变得美好；只要经历过了失败，也许成功就在不远处；只要受尽了伤再爬起身，也许久久追求的梦想也能达成。虽然一切都是也许，但只要坚信并秉持自己的信念，总有一天，无论受尽了多少的伤、无论受尽了多少侮辱，都是值得的。

选择

人生就只有一次，我们不能倒带重新开始，也不能试图改变过去的一切。事事往往都是已注定了的。但有人说命运掌握在我们手中，必须靠我们这双手去开拓我们的未来。既然人生就只有一次，何必为难自己走自己不喜欢的路呢？人生就像下象棋，举手不回，一旦走错了一步，就会误入歧途，每一个看起来没用的棋子，其实都是成败的关键。人生就只有一次，那为何不选择走自己最有把握，最有自信的那条路呢？强逼自己走没兴趣或不喜欢的大路，即使学有所成，自己也不会感到快乐，因为它不是自己想要的。既然是这样，倒不如走只属于自己的小路，至少你会得到快乐、成就感和种种的满足感，不是更好么？

孤独

对着电脑屏幕，心里的心情像海浪舨汹涌，但却无法用文字完整地把这表达出来。刚刚滑过脸颊的泪水，随着音乐的旋律飘到了很远，很远。拼命命令自己要冷静，但此刻才知道再没办法伪装自己的坚强，强行压抑在心坎里的一切不自觉地浮现在眼前，似乎不让我再逃避现实。制止了的泪水，又重新从眼眶里流了出来。不知道，烦恼会否随着泪水的流去而消失呢？

揣摩

蟋蟀优美的歌声传进了耳边，与弟妹的鼻鼾声形成了不协调的音调。寂静的深夜已不知不觉地降临，听了一遍又一遍的音乐旋律在脑里回荡着，尝试让自己的心平静下来，却依然揣摩不了那种感觉，那种心情。心里充满了疑惑与苦恼，难道必须亲身经历过了，才写得出当时的心境？

图书馆与我

  我徐步走进了图书馆，眼前的一切对我来说有点熟悉，却又带点陌生。图书馆里安装了几架冷气机，书架的位置都更改过了，门旁多了个借书的柜台，但桌子的位置却一点儿都没有改变，那放置报纸的旧木箱依然存在。

  书架上摆满了种种书籍，我走到了那熟悉的木书架面前，只见书架上摆的书籍与几年前一模一样，从没更换过。

  “先生，那里都是储存已久的书籍，有点旧了，别介意。”柜台小姐看我对着木书架发呆，误以为我嫌他们的书籍太旧。

  “哦，没事。”我挥挥手表示，并抽出一本书，书名为《福尔摩斯探案》。呵，真巧！我不由自主地笑了，想起了我与爸爸第一次来到这图书馆的时候。这本厚厚的书，就是爸爸推荐我读的。他曾说过的每一个字，都深深地烙印在我的心里头。我的思绪慢慢地飘到了五年前……

  当年的经济不景气，许多人民连三餐都成问题。爸爸为了养家，只好一天兼职几份工作。才三年纪的我，任性得不得了，总是要求爸爸陪伴我。在我的哭闹之下，妈妈也没办法了。一天，爸爸带我到附近的公共图书馆去。那里麻雀虽小，五脏具全，摆满了不同种类的书。我好奇地绕了图书馆一圈，爸爸一把捉住我，把我带到一个木书架前。之后他从“侦探类”抽出了一本名为《福尔摩斯探案》的书，递给我并拍拍我的头说：“文轩，爸看得出你具有过人的观察能力，所以才借了这本书。你得用心地去咀嚼书里的每一个字，并把自己融入进故事世界里，试着去明白作者想要表达的，这样才读得有意义！明白吗？”我似懂非懂地点了头，“轩，要是你愿意，你也可以选择到这里来阅读哦。”就这样，我跟随爸爸回了家，手上多了一本挺厚的书。

  那一天起，我手里总会捧着一本书。《福尔摩斯探案》花了我不少时间来完成阅读，到图书馆退还时，他们看在我是小学生的份上，允许我免费借书。通常我会选择在图书馆里阅读。我知道，我已深深地爱上了这图书馆，它总是那么地宁静、舒适。也从那一刻起，我与图书馆就结下了不解之缘。在图书馆阅读成了我每天的首要任务。只要一天不到图书馆去，就会浑身不自在，好像被什么缠住似的。

  有一次，图书馆里的一位叔叔走来对我说：“孩子，你知道吗？图书馆就像埋藏了不少宝物的宝库，而你现在正努力地挖掘那些宝物。”他顿了顿，“而知识就像一望无际的大海，永远没有尽头。学无止境啊，孩子！加油吧！”之后他便掉头走了。我反复想了几遍，终于搞清楚了其意。那叔叔……是在鼓励我向前进吧？

  令人意想不到的是，悲剧在这时发生了。爸爸怀疑操劳过度，忽地昏了。当时我着急得如热锅上的蚂蚁，幸亏妈妈已叫来了身为医生的邻居，张伯。诊断之后，他

露出了难看的脸色，把我们两个推到屋外去。妈妈似乎已料到张伯要说什么，只问：“我丈夫……能撑到何时？”张伯耸肩，“得看他个人意识。他的身体太虚弱了，脉搏时而跳动，时而停止。就算我开了药方，也不知他是否能支撑下去……”张伯的眼睛开始模糊了，“最多只能看见明天的日出了。进去吧。”

  我冲了进去，不敢相信一切都是真的。含在眼里已久的泪水不争气地落了下来，滑过了脸颊。脸色苍白的爸爸大约也猜到怎么一回事，在我耳边呢喃：“孩子别哭。爸爸会伤心的。”我擦干了泪水，“这就乖了。要好好照顾你妈妈。我死后，火葬就行了，土葬的费用太贵了。”爸爸咳了几声，“还有最重要的，你……咳咳……一定要继续培养阅读这个好习惯。阅读对你……咳咳……”

  “好了爸爸，别说了。妈妈在这呢！”我忍住泪水，退到一旁，让爸爸和妈妈好好地谈一会儿。屋外的邻居都低下头，默默地祈祷。可惜，他已经离开我们，到另一个世界去了。我和妈妈都照他所说的，将他火葬。再见了，爸爸。

  爸爸的遗言一直在我脑海里回荡着。因为这件事，我对图书馆的爱意又加深了，也更爱阅读了。我与图书馆仿佛被一条名为命运的绳子绑在一起，无法分离。接着，妈妈因为要离开这个伤心地，带我到了城市，在那里生活了五年。五年了，我依然那么地爱阅读，但没有一间图书馆比得上那间简陋却充满回忆的图书馆。
 
  望着手中这本《福尔摩斯探案》，仿佛听见了爸爸对我说话。是爸爸！是他把我带到了图书馆这里，并系下了那永远无法解开的绳子！图书馆变成了我生命的一部分，绝对不可缺少的一部分。
 
  我离开了图书馆，望着那蔚蓝的天空，嘴角不禁泛出了一丝微笑。爸爸，你在听我说话吧？托你的福，图书馆与我变成了形影不离的好知己，看见我的地方一定会看见图书馆。我比以前更爱阅读了，现在你的儿子，我已是位成功的心理学家。但学无止境，我会继续努力求上进的。放心吧，爸爸！

Hari Koko 2011

Last year, I didn't join the marching competition as I'm PBSM's member. This year, I managed to join KRS. I'm really lucky I know. Plus, I can take part in the marching competition known as Hari Kokorikulum. It's a competition between all the unit beruniform such as KRS ( A ) , KRS ( B ) , PBSM ( BSMM ) , Pengakap & Kadet Polis. I'm in the KRS ( B ) squad.

The commander is Shirlyn Ling. I've admit that she's a really good and caring commander. We had learnt a lot from her. During formation, she'll made some funny poses and had made us laugh. But when she's serious, she'll be so scary. Oh well, at least she didn't pump us :P

So now I'm going to talk about yesterday. Yesterday was Hari Kokorikulum of our school. We had practised for almost two months just because of the competition. Because of this, I even scolded by my mom and dad for don't know how many times. Nvm, they don't understand how fun is marching. We're the last squad to perform. All of us are so nervous, neither do Shirlyn.

When we finished our formation, everyone clapped so loud for us. Soo Yin said that a lot of positive feedbacks for our formation. I did one mistake I think, but who cares? I'VE DO MY BEST,RIGHT? =)

So...this is the first year KRS didn't get 1st. Kadet Polis broke the tradition. We felt so sorry to KRS, Shirlyn, Soo Yin and everyone that supports KRS so much. But still, we got the 2nd and KRS ( A ) got the 3rd. Pengakap and PBSM got 4th and 5th.

It's so unfair actually because the judges are all our school teachers. But what Soo Yin said is, even though Kadet Polis are not the best, but I think they deserved it for improving so much! We should be proud of them! And this shows the beginning of the great competition next year.

So yea, I admit Kadet Polis are better than us , especially their perlahan jalan are so neat and nice. So let us don't talk about dog teachers or racism or something. ENJOY LIFE =) And 2nd
isn't that bad right? Just to perasan a bit, AT LEAST WE BEAT THE BOY'S SQUAD (KRS A).

As Evan said, Journey that's the matter. Therefore....oh! One more thing. Shirlyn Ling's the ketua platoon terbaik now. Shirlyn, thanks for the awesome formation you created. Soo Yin, Stephanie Chan,Andrea Chen,Tham Wai Mun and the others,THANKS A LOT!

This is my really great experience. And now, I even love marching more! .___. Is that a good thing? Not really , my parents ban me to join marching competition next year. Arrg! Anyway, congratz Kadet Polis and Shirlyn Ling. KRS is always the 1st in my heart ! KRS ROCKS!!!

ONE SAD ONE ANGRY

Long time didn't update my blog since i've been so busy with my exams and also Hari Koko marching. I'm preoccupied. But I really really can't bear my anger and sadness anymore. I've to speak to someone else , otherwise i'll be going to be crazy.

 Low Le Shea. We same class for two years but we don't really talk much to each other. Today is her last day in BUD4,we bought a cake that cost RM50++ and prepared some present for her. Le Shea is absolutely smarter than me, and of course, prettier than me. Without Le Shea our class will be so quiet and TJ surely will be more annoying.I almost cried, erm... Oh ya, Shawn and Shaman sprayed water without aiming Le Shea. Haa, we were SUPPOSED to protect Le Shea from getting wet but we failed to. And Kendrew was so naughty and irritating. He pushed Marcus toward Le Shea and the six cupcakes fell on the floor. It's all Kendrew's fault. Nvm, everyone in our class hate Kendrew. Monday, Kendrew surely will be a death man. LE SHEA, I LOVE YOUR SMILE. GOOD LUCK IN YOUR NEW SCHOOL AND I DARE YOU NOT TO FORGET US. COME BACK TO VISIT US WHEN YOU'RE FREE , PROMISE KAY? I'LL MISS YOU, WE'LL MISS YOU. BYE BYE LESSHHH... T.T

 I should not left my phone in my tuition centre. Why they look at my camera pictures, pictures and videos in my phone WITHOUT my permission!? They're teacher some more! How dare them! Even my mom let me have my own privacy. Who they think they are? Teachers dai sei now isn't? And don't give me a lame and stupid reason such as we just wanted to know that who's the owner. TOO FUNNY. Okay, I admitted I did something wrong too. I should not take pictures of tuition teachers without permission right? Fine. Next time I'll know what to do. I'm so damn angry about this. I can't forgive them for this. Except for Ms Yi and Ms Ye cause I knew both of them are really good teachers. They won't did something like peep their student's handphone.

 Anyway ,I don't trust the rest of tuition teachers anymore. Three of them. They don't respect me , I won't respect them too. I'll try not doing that too obvious. DAMN IT.

 Ya, that's all. Oh one last thing, NEVER LEAVE ANYTHING IN TUITION CENTRE. Tuition teachers will very pleasure to have a look of it. BYE le shea , BYE my blog , BYE.

One more day

Yeah......One day left ! After today , no more exam week but HOLIDAY ! I have been waiting for today ages. Today's exams are Pendidikan Seni and Sejarah and now only I start studying Sejarah . Hey! Geografy isn't that hard right? Erm...okay lar. Since last year I get only 50++ for my Geo so now I'm going to get at least 70++ for it. Wanna know how many hours I sleep for these days? Never mind. Try to make a guess , ha. Haiz...exams such a big disaster for me weih. Exactly lar. Who likes exams? =.= Oppss time's up. Have to study Sejarah now. BYE! Start with which chapter better? Let see......

今天

今天，她终算将心中的所有压力都爆发出来了。她的眼泪不受控制地直流，太累了吧？她仍然一题一题细心地教导妹妹，虽然妹妹一直抱怨，但她心中何尝不是？她比我们任何一个人都还需要休息、关心，可是我做了些什么啊？唉。

现在已经是凌晨一时了，可我清醒极了。刚刚发生的那一幕还深刻地存在我脑海里。至于细节，实在是言语无法描述的。终而言之，对不起，妈妈。我爱你。母亲节都快到了，你都快累垮了，可我却还在制造麻烦。对不起，妹妹。我不应该随意骂你。作为一个姐姐，我不应该责骂你。你还在难过吧？

对不起。

TWO JOKES

1
One day , Joh saw his father's car drove into the woods with Aunt Jet. Curiously , he followed his car and saw them kissing. Joh goes back home and tells her mom quickly.

Joh tells his mom,"I saw Dad's car go into the woods with Aunt Jet.Dad was giving Aunt a big kiss, then he helped her take off her shirt, Aunt Jet helped Dad take his pants off, then Aunt laid down the seat , then Dad..."
At this point ,  Mom says, "Boy, it's such a interesting story suppose you to save the rest of it for supper time.I want to see the look on your dad's face when he hear this."
Dinner time , Mom asks Joh to tell the story.He describes driving into the woods , kissing each other and everything then suddenly he says,"They did the same thing Mom and Uncle Tony used to do when Dad was in Army."

2
A blonde chick found herself sitting next to a lawyer on an airplane. Bored, the lawyer kept bugging the blonde wanting her to play a game of intelligence (lawyers like easy prey). Finally, the lawyer offered her 10 to 1 odds, said every time the blonde could not answer one of his questions she owed him $5, but every time he could not answer hers he’d give her $50.00. The lawyer figured he could not lose, and the blonde reluctantly accepted.



The lawyer first asked, “What is the distance between the Earth and the nearest star?” Without saying a word the blonde handed him $5.


The blonde then asked, “What goes up a hill with 3 legs and comes back down the hill with 4 legs?”


The lawyer looked puzzled. He spent nearly an hour, looking up everything he could on his laptop and even placing numerous air-to-ground phone calls, trying to find the answer. Finally, angry and frustrated, he gave up and paid the blonde $50.00


The blonde put the $50 into her purse without comment, but the lawyer insisted, “What is the answer to your question?”


Without saying a word, the blonde handed him $5.

LOL ... Damn funny rite?

Yesterday , 11 March 2011. Something that we doesn't want it to happen happened in Japan. First the 8.9 serious earthquake. The strong motion of earthquake made the outbreak of tsunami that 33 feet high. Both natural disaster plus some factories and houses on fire happened at the same time.

Is 2012 a true rumour? A prophecy that gonna happen? We are just human , we doesn't know all of these answers , so let the God to answer these.

APPRECIATE PEOPLE. GLAD that we live in Malaysia , a peaceful place. No natural disaster , no war. Everyone live in Malaysia live happily without any tears. LET'S PRAY FOR JAPAN NOW. ( Or should I just leave this job to Justin Bieber ? xDDD Get what I mean? ) Haha. *singing the song 'pray' *

about KRS

The Kem Pentauliahan almost passed a week but everything happen during the camp i kept it all in my mind. Example ? Erm...woke up at 3 o'clock and marching ? And...the MK ? We sang songs clearly , loudly , happily. Although the three days were not easy to go through , but I LOVE KRS. And nothing's gonna change my love for it.

As you all knew , Yi Ling , Kam , Marcus , Teng Yan , Evan Soo , Li Jie , Jia Yi and Andrea became lance corporal this year. LET'S CLAP FOR THEM! The last day of the camp , Steph Chan suddenly cried. She thanked for our support and going for the camp. Actually I wanted to cry too but I didn't. Steph , YOU DID IT!  And now , STEPH , JUSTIN FONG , SOO YIN my idol, PEI YEE , ANGELINE my group AJK , TIMOTHY the ketua pengawas , YONG QUAN , SHIRLYN LING , KADRI the one who made us laugh and more , thanks for everything. I don't know what should I say now , seriously.

I learnt a lot from this camp. And I gain some experience , my leg too ! Look at the wound on my leg. Damn freaking pain . I fell down with Samantha Chan , Steph's sister. Unlucky leh , the first time , first day to camp then i felt. Haha xD.

My wound , pretty rite ?

The fifth day after the camp. Damn scary weih.

Next year I'm going to kem pentauliahan again. TO PASS EXAMS AND BECOME LANCE !!!

KRS...PENGAWAS...EXAMS...

Come back to here. Everytime I have something in my mind I choose to post here to share it with everyone. Now , I'm going to conquer three main difficults , the KRS pentauliahan exams , the prefect interview and the monthly exam that on March.

I already went to the first interview of prefect. Actually this I've to thank En.Sivakumar. Because of him , I only have chance to the interview. I read the peraturan book and memorised all the displin teachers' name. I hope I can pass the interview so that I can go for the second interview and secondly , I hope En.Siva won't be disappointed at me. The results will annouced by Timothy tmr during the perhimpunan. I'm really nervous , the others were same as me , of course. Nevertheless , whatever the results it is , I will like to say : THANK YOU EN.SIVA ! Thanks for giving me a chance.

Secondly...The KRS pentauliahan exams. Exam? Erm...actually it's a camp. We can attend the exam if we wanted. It's optional. But I really wanted to become a lans coperal. This is the first year I'm in KRS so...actually I guess I've only 50% to pass the KRS exams and become lans coperal because there were 80 and above members joining this exam. Haiz...Work hard Jane! You can do it!

Last one , the monthly exam. It's on March. And...I'm not really sure that the exams are after the camp or before the camp. This made me doesn't knew study which one first. Because our exam date depend on teacher , and we still don't know teacher's decision yet. But now , I think I better study the KRS things first because there's a lot to study example tali , kain anduh , marching and more. So I think I better study both at the same time. But then this will make me menambah my beban...Arrgg...I'll try my best to do everything well.

Erm...I've to sleep now.Haiz...Bye blog ^^ Wish that i could solve all the problems..

朋友

朋友，到底是什么？为什么需要朋友？朋友的定义是什么？以前，我总以为只要和你共享乐的就是好朋友。可是，现在我不会那么想了。以前的我太单纯，现在的我太愚蠢。我至今还是不明白，为什么有人说朋友是拿来利用的？难道他必须要富有、有利用价值才可以和他交朋友吗？为什么人就不可以对朋友坦诚，要在他面前假装说好话，到他背后就插他一刀？为什么朋友一旦有任何缺点，就想要嫌弃他、丢弃他？朋友之间不是应该互相帮助的吗？为什么会变成互相利用对方？

以前还以为，朋友都是真心对自己好的。所以当他们不开心时，我会传短信给他们、安慰他们；当他们开心时，我和他们一样地快乐。可是，现实社会中，“朋友”这个词纯属是让人用来利用、欺骗！这是怎么回事啊？

经历了少年军的露营后，我才明白人为了往上爬可以不惜一切。他们为了当上AJK，偷窃他人的考试卡、背叛自己的朋友、和高层打好关系，令我开始怀疑我拼命想要当的AJK到底是一个怎么样的角色？只要和高层拥有友好的关系就行了吗？还是只要拼命拍高层马屁就可？

算了，如果有人真的为了权力而疏远朋友、接近高层，那么恭喜他，因为他失去了最重要的情 -- 友情。

舍得

舍得笑，得到的是友谊；­
放得下，才能走得远！
有所放弃，才能有所追求。
 什么也不愿放弃的人，
反而会失去最珍贵的东西。

舍得虚名，得到的是逍遥；
­舍得施舍，得到的是美名；
­舍得红尘，得到的是天尊。­
舍得小，就有可能得大；
舍得近，就有可能得到远。­



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做人...

记住！再烦也好，也别忘微笑；再怎么急，也要注意语气。再苦，也别忘了坚持下去；再怎么疲累，也要好好地爱自己。低调做人，你就会一次比一次稳健；而高调做事，你会一次比一次优秀。

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